One thing I hate about being a dad.
About a month ago my daughter heard a sermon in Sunday school about insecurity.
Later that day she opened up to us for the first time about her self image struggles.
I stood in disbelief as my little baby talked about not feeling pretty enough, cool enough or good enough.
I almost burst into tears as she confessed that she wished she looked like ______.
Naturally I went into preacher mode, throwing every scripture, story or illustration I could at her hoping to somehow kill this self image monster that was fighting for my little girls heart.
But the more I tried, the more I realized this was gonna be a lifelong battle.
2 hrs later I was driving around balling my eyes out to God. Not sure exactly what I said.
Maybe something like this...
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Dear Jesus,
Ah. I hate this. I wanna scream. I know this is normal for everyone else but you've got to make an exception for my little girl.
Seriously. You've got to stop this.
Please.
I know I'm not allowed to ask for exceptions. But I have to. I have no hope. I'm desperate. I'm pleading.
Please God. Spare my daughter from the battle against insecurity.
I never want her to not feel pretty/good/beautiful/smart enough.
Please. Anything else but this.
You can do anything. I'm pleading with you. Please help her fight this battle.
No, I don't want her to fight it.
Can you at least show me how I can fight it for her?
I'll take double or triple the insecurity on myself.
I'll carry this burden. I will.
God, I can't take the thought of her one day not seeing herself the way I see her.
The way you see her.
It kills me that she doesn't feel pretty enough. It breaks my heart.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
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Scream. Tears. Scream. Tears.
I hate sin. I hate brokenness.
I love being a dad but this...
I hate this.
I hate that my princess will have to feel inadequate.
This is gonna be one of the hardest battles I'm ever gonna fight cause I can't really fight it.
I can't fix it. Carry it. Duct tape it.
My little girl will have to. She'll have to cling to the gospel for herself.
This drives me nuts.
All I can do is be the best dad I can be. I just wish I could do more.
I wish I could do something so she never has to have 'that feeling' of inadequacy.
Ladies, moms, sisters, I could use some help.
What do you know now that you wish you knew before about your insecurities?
Brothers, dads, fellas, please chime in too.
What's your experience with insecurity?
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