Ugly People.

Fasten your seat-belts.

I’m about to take you to one of the deepest darkest corners of my soul.
Its embarrassing, nasty and I’m extremely ashamed of this part of me.

Most of the time when I hear a speaker for the first time, I ask the same question...

How good is he and am I better than him?

Most of the time.

Truthfully, I’m a lot closer to ‘all of the time’ than ‘most of the time’ but Its so hard to type that.

Its scary because this train of thought is not even a place I go to... It feels more like my shadow.
It feels like a part of me that’s just always there.

A part of me that just comes out... within seconds.

There’s no nice bow at the end of this post. Just exposing my insecurity, sin and depravity.

I’m honestly not sure if I battle such ugliness this consistently in any other area of my life.
Its like this ‘demon’ within me that just won’t die. I have to fight it. Everyday.

Pride sucks.

I hate it.
I need a savior.

Jesus, save me from my ugly.

Culture often accuses the church of being hypocrites. I think its because we are. Its because I am.

Yes Jesus paid it all... but we’re still being sanctified.
There’s still so much ugly in us and when we hide that, well, we’re not only confirming our hypocrisy but we are showing that we we’re not really buying this whole ‘grace’ thing that we’re selling.

Grace is what makes the ugly beautiful.

Hey Christian, what do you say we stop hiding our ugly and let grace do its thing?

Yea? you agree? Well here's the moment of truth: What’s your ‘inner demon’?

What 'ugly' consistently raises its head in your life?
Where is that place your mind goes to that you hope no one ever finds out? [anonymous comments welcome]